Mummy vlogger reveals cruel trolls who body shamed her after her miscarriage forced her to quit YouTube
Anna Saccone was called 'obese' by the commenters... bringing up bad memories of her decade-long battle with bulimia
CRUEL trolls who sent a mummy vlogger body shaming messages just weeks after she suffered a miscarriage forced her to quit YouTube.
Posting her first video in around a month, a teary Anna Saccone revealed she felt like she had no choice but to have a break – because she couldn’t take the pressure anymore.
The healthy 28-year-old, from Cork, said cruel commenters who called her ‘obese’ brought back memories of her decade-long battle with bulimia – which took over Anna’s life after her dad’s death from cancer.
In the emotional clip, Anna said: “After the miscarriage I just wanted to get back into the swing of things and not have it affect my life too much, not let it engulf me and take over.
“About a month or two afterwards I started having really bad negative emotions. My mental health was suffering a lot because I felt like c**p.
“I just really felt like s*** about myself. And what really didn’t help was the comments I was getting.
“So I tried to do this six-week plan of giving you guys a personal trainer.
“All of those videos, all that I got was hate comments. I haven’t even looked at the comments on the video for a long time because they were affecting me so badly.
“I just got the worst body shaming comments, fat shaming comments, comments saying that I was obese. I know it shouldn’t matter but it did.
“Every time I put up a full-length Instagram picture I would get comments saying I was obese.
“People even started a hashtag called ‘save obese Anna’. And it did get to me, because of the mental state I was in already.
“It was just c**p timing. Bash me all you want when things are fine in my life, but when I’ve just lost a baby…
“I carried a child for 11 weeks and miscarried. I literally gave birth. I felt like I had given birth, but I had no baby.
“I don’t care what people say about that it was really early on or the thing was tiny, it’s not even a baby.
“To me, that was my child. I felt empty inside. And then to be attacked by all of these people – it was just too much.
“I felt like I was literally going inside. I thought ‘I need a break, I can’t face the world’.”
Opening up for the first time about her eating disorders, Anna revealed: “Since I was about 12 I felt fat.
“I always felt like I was too big, huge, even though I wasn’t. When I was 18 it was a turning point in my life when my dad was diagnosed with cancer.
“My whole life felt like it was completely out of control so I had to control something. The eating disorder I suffered from was bulimia.
“And I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. I think when you’re really young it’s glamorised a bit because it’s associated with models.
“There is nothing glamorous about sticking your head down the toilet.
“When I was 21 my dad passed away and at that point I was doing it maybe as much as five times a day.
“I was not leaving the house, just constantly binging and purging. That was probably the lowest point in my entire life.
“I felt so under the control of numbers – food, calories, weight had a massive control over me.
“An eating disorder will ruin your life and it will steal your life from you. I never felt happy.”
According to Anna, the only time she has felt confident in her own skin was when carrying her children.
She added: “I felt like that gave me so much purpose. There was something about my body that I liked, and it was this life that I was growing.
“So I stopped all eating disorder behaviours, for the longest time that I had ever done before because I cared so much about this baby.
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“And I thought I was recovered but I wasn’t, I think it was just dormant... because I hadn’t done it for myself.
“I still really hated myself the same way I did before.”
Anna said she has posted the candid clip, which is 28 minutes long, in the hope of helping others – who may be going through similar struggles.