'NO JUSTICE'
Prince Harry ‘angry’ at British public for mourning Diana saying ‘you never even met her’
PRINCE Harry has revealed he was "angry" at the British public for mourning his mother Diana because they "never even met her".
The Duke of Sussex opened up about the pain of the death of his mum, who died in a car crash in August 1997 when he was just 12.
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Speaking in his new documentary The Me You Can't See, Harry addressed traumatic memories from his childhood - including the moment he was photographed with his brother, uncle and grandfather walking behind Diana's coffin at her funeral.
The 36-year-old, who was just a young boy at the time and rightfully upset, also expressed his frustration that the country grieved for his mother, despite not knowing her personally at all.
He told his series co-host Oprah Winfrey: "When my mum was taken away from me at the age of 12, I didn't want the [royal] life, sharing the grief of my mother's death with the world.
"For me, the thing I remember the most was the sound of the horses' hooves going along the Mall.
"It was like I was outside of my body and just walking along doing what was expected of me.
"(I was) showing one tenth of the emotion that everybody else was showing: This was my mum - you never even met her.
"I was so angry with what happened to her and that there was no justice, at all. Nothing came from that."
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Harry also revealed that members of the Royal Family told him to "just play the game and your life will be easier" before he left for the United States.
"But I've got a hell of a lot of my mum in me," he said.
"I feel as though I am outside of the system - but I'm still stuck there. The only way to free yourself and break out is to tell the truth."
The series focuses on mental health, with Harry telling Winfrey the trauma of the loss caused him to suffer anxiety and severe panic attacks from ages 28 to 32.
"I was just all over the place mentally," he said. "It was a nightmare time in my life."
"Every time I put a suit on and tie on, having to do the role, and go, 'right, game face', look in the mirror and say, 'let's go'.
"Before I even left the house I was pouring with sweat. I was in fight-or-flight mode.
"I'm freaking out every single time I jump in the car, or see a camera.
"I would just start sweating. I would feel like my body temperature rise and I'd convinced myself my face was bright red.
"It was embarrassing. Everyone's looking at me. One bead of sweat feels like the whole face is pouring down Just sweating.
"They have no idea. I can't tell them. Everywhere I go, every single time I meet someone, it's like I'm being drained of energy."
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Discussing his memories of Diana, the duke said: "Unfortunately when I think about my mum, the first thing that comes to mind is always the same one over and over again.
"Strapped in the car, seat belt across with my brother in the car as well and mother driving and being chased by three, four, five mopeds with paparazzi on.
"She was always unable to drive because of the tears. There was no protection."
Prince Harry also spoke about:
- Prince Charles not 'making it right' for him and brother Prince William after their mother's car crash death in 1997
- Turning to drinking and drugs in his late 20s, admitting: 'I would drink a week's worth in one day'
- The public being allowed to mourn his mother Princess Diana, while he was not
- How he's convinced the media 'will not stop' until wife Meghan Markle 'dies'
- How Meghan resisted suicidal thoughts because she knew it would be 'unfair' for Harry to lose another woman in his life
He said the trauma of his mother's death led him to use alcohol and drugs to "mask" his emotions and to "feel less like I was feeling".
"I was willing to drink, I was willing to take drugs, I was willing to try and do the things that made me feel less like I was feeling," he said.
He told Winfrey he would drink a week's worth of alcohol on a Friday or Saturday night "not because I was enjoying it but because I was trying to mask something".
He added that he wishes his mum was still alive so she could meet his wife and children.
"I wish she could have met Meghan. I wish she was around for Archie," he said.
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"I've got a photo up in his nursery... and it was one of the first words that he said. Apart from 'mama', 'papa', it was then 'grandma', 'grandma Diana'.
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"It's the sweetest thing but at the same time makes me really sad."
The five-part celebrity-packed doc was released on Apple TV in the US on Thursday night and the UK this morning.
Prince Harry says some of Archie's first words were 'grandma Diana' as he has pic in his nursery but it 'makes me sad'
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