I’ve been left f***ed up by my failed marriage – it will take someone special to fix me, admits Rylan
WITH millions in the bank and a handsome husband by his side, telly favourite Rylan thought he had it made.
But when his six-year marriage fell apart last year, the 33-year-old suffered dark thoughts as his mental health hit rock bottom.
In his most upfront and honest chat since the split with his ex Dan Neal, Rylan has opened up about the heartbreaking truth behind his breakdown.
The much-loved TV presenter told The Sun: "I've got to learn to trust again".
Ten months on since his break-up, Rylan admits he's still "f***ed up" by what happened as he slowly begins to "find a new life".
"Regardless of what happened in that relationship and how I was made to feel, I thought my life was sorted," said Rylan, speaking at No7's launch last night.
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"I had my career, I had my family, but then I suddenly didn't...
"All of a sudden I feel like I’ve gone back ten years, but I'm ten years more advanced.
"I’m in a very different position to where I was back then - financially and career-wise.
"I’ve just got to learn to trust again. I was in a ten-year relationship and when you learn things... It f***s you up. I don’t know how long I’ll be f***ed up for.
"I’m good in myself, but it’s going to take someone f***ing special... It's not a quick fix."
When his life spiralled out of control last summer, Rylan turned to his "telly mum and dad" Eammon Holmes and Ruth Langsford.
He admits they were left "frightened and shocked" when his mental health deteriorated in the aftermath of the split.
"There was a point when I was really, really bad when I went back to my house that I'd moved out of," Rylan explained.
Rylan will soon release his brand-new memoir, Ten: The Decade that Changed My Future, thought to be an intimate insight into his pursuit of fame and recent heartbreak.
Straight-talker Rylan promises: "It's about to get a hell of a lot more honest in the book."
Despite the painful end to his marriage, Rylan has proved he's not given up on love.
He joined dating app Tinder six months ago, writing in his bio: “Tall normal bloke – 6’4” – am I actually on this thing?”
Rylan has also been making the most of his single life on wild nights out with pals - and even his mum Linda.
In a recent candid post on Twitter however, Rylan told how he was missing being in a relationship.
He wrote: "Ever have a night out where u have a really good night with friends... However on the way home u sit and think, would much rather a night in with Netflix and someone u care about... yeah that babe."
Revealing hopes of finding The One, Rylan told us: "I want nothing more than to be with someone who supports me and I support them and is proud of me and is happy for me and vice versa. That's all I want.
"But I’m in no rush. It has to be right.
"I've realised at this age that if I have my family, my management team and my make-up artist then I'm sorted - and if anyone else comes along then fantastic, but I'm very happy with what I've got.
"I’ve spent a hell of a lot of time on my own and hidden away by being off work.
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"Now I'm back at work and I'm slowly finding a new life. That's what I'm doing."
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