Martine McCutcheon admits she’s ‘struggling to get up’ after brother’s tragic death as she reveals loss ‘hurt like hell’
MARTINE McCutcheon has opened up about her heartache and struggle after losing her brother.
The , 46, broke the sad news that her brother LJ - Laurence John - passed away with "no medical explanation" at the age of 31 last month.
Martine revealed she has found it “hard as hell” as she opened up about her daily struggles.
In a touching post, the former EastEnders star wrote: "Life isn't all optimism and love of life generally! Let's face it, life can be complicated, sad, fragile and can be a rollercoaster ride.
"Grief isn't pretty. It hurts like hell and makes you question so many things you felt certain of. Just getting up to do normal things can be so tough. Some days I manage, some days I don't."
She continued: "So for any of you going through it, I salute you! But you have to keep being kind to yourself, be kind to your loved ones, keep going when you can and rest when you can as its traumatic."
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"Be proud of the small wins too. For various reasons, today was especially tough, but It was wonderful to see some old friends for some much needed hugs, some honest conversation and a glass of bubbles.”
Martine was due to be the bridesmaid at her younger brother’s wedding before his sudden death.
At the time she told fans: "I'm scared to live without you LJ but I know you will want us to truly live, laugh and love in your memory. I will try I promise".
Martine also opened up about her brother's battle with his "special needs" and his determination to lead a "normal life".
