FACING FEARS
Stacey Solomon reveals she has crippling fear of dying and suffers with ‘intrusive thoughts’ amid anxiety battle
STACEY Solomon has revealed that she suffers with a crippling fear of dying and "intrusive thoughts" amid anxiety battle.
The 31-year-old said that she uses her tidying as a way of coping with her fear of death.
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The Loose Women panellist explained that when she feels "out of control" she begins to develop "intrusive thoughts".
Stacey said: "My 'out of control' manifests in fear. I have this really weird fear of death. So the minute I feel out of control I just think I'm going to die. I know that sounds ridiculous, it's so weird.
"When things are going wrong I just immediately, my brain goes to the most intrusive thoughts that it possibly could. I just think, 'Oh my gosh, this could happen to me tomorrow and then I could not wake up.'"
Stacey regularly shares her hacks, recipes and crafting on social media and has recently released a new book called Tap To Tidy.
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The influencer said that she uses organising and crafting as a way to overcome her dark thoughts.
Speaking on , Stacey added: "The only way for me to completely block out those thoughts when I'm feeling out of control is to focus my mind on a task and that can be tidying something, organising something or crafting something.
";I think that exercise, cooking, crafting, all of these things are just a different forms of meditation."
The star also admitted that she still battles with the feelings of guilt from being a teen mum.
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Stacey, who got pregnant aged 17, said she became an expert in tidying because it was something she could get a handle on.
She added: "I even now look back and feel really guilty about the way I was as a parent when he was a baby, because I just wasn't good.
"And I know that obviously you shouldn't say that to yourself but that is just the way I feel about the situation.
"I didn't want to be his mum, I didn't know how to be his mum and I found it all very, very difficult."
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Stacey said she still feels guilty about having to put three-month-old Zachery in a day nursery as she returned to school.
She continued: "I was still at college so three months after I had Zach I went back to finish my A-levels, and he went to the creche inside the nursery,' she said.
"It was an adult learning college so they had a creche, so from like seven in the morning until three o'clock in the afternoon from like three months old, bless him.
"I honestly can't tell you how guilty I feel about the whole thing."
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However, the I'm a Celeb star said she is proud of herself for doing an "amazing job" with her three sons, Zachary, 12, Leighton, eight, and Rex, 21 months.
She said: "I look at exactly what's going on now and I just think do you know what Stace, you've done an amazing job, you are an incredible mum.
"The boys that I've raised, I am so proud. There is nothing I am more proud of than my children.
"Every single one of them has had a different upbringing, every single one of them has been born into different circumstances with different lifestyles and they're all really good people.
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"And I think that goes to show that no matter what regrets I have, no matter what happened in the past, ultimately... it's all going to be alright."
The TV star recently revealed that her sons will give her away when she marries Joe Swash in July.
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