The TV star appeared on Friday's show to discuss her love life drama, and hit back at criticism following the romance
BIANCA Gascoigne has revealed she's been unable to sleep after Jamie O'Hara dumped her, just days after leaving Celebrity Big Brother.
The 30-year-old grew extremely close to the footballer during their time together on the Channel 5 reality show, but within three days of leaving the house, Jamie called time on their fleeting romance.
Bianca was left stunned, and during Friday's Loose Women, she told the panellists how the news had left her feeling.
She said: "I've had a really hard time, I've not been sleeping because of my anxiety and the whole thing ... I've actually just booked a holiday. I'm going away later just to clear my head. I'm going to turn off my phone. I'm just not sleeping. I think it's because it's still fresh."
Bianca kept her relationship with boyfriend CJ Meeks a secret for much of her time in the house, with the news coming out during a task in the house.
Speaking about the incident, she said: "Being labelled a cheat is such a horrible thing to be labelled. I know that's what happened but I've never done that before in my life...
"I couldn't help my feelings towards Jamie and it slowly developed, everything is intensified in that house. Hearing you guys talk about it, I thought that's how I'm going to be labelled now'... Everything is a mess."
CJ - who had been dating Bianca since Christmas 2015 - tried to persuade his now-former flame not to do the reality TV show at the time, but she is adamant she was always going to do it because she thought it would boost the profile of her strip club.
Bianca - who is the manager of the establishment in London - said: "I was just delighted to have the opportunity to go on there. I thought I would go on there to have fun, thought it would be good for the club, never thought I'd fall for someone in there.
"It wasn't in my mindset at all. It just happened. When I got put for the programme I was single and we were on and off. It was difficult for me not to be able to talk about it. I wish it could have been different but that's just the way it was.
"We were on and off. I don’t think he was obviously pleased that I was going in there. But I was always going to go in there because it’s something that I’ve always wanted to do. It wasn’t right [the relationship].
"Obviously it wasn’t considering what happened with Jamie, it wouldn’t have been right, if that was to develop with Jamie it just shows to me that that really wasn’t right.”
CJ, who was watching the show, sent a message to Bianca which read: “Bianca knows the truth and so do I. And, if there was doubt about our relationship she should have said months before, not gone on national television and cheated on me. I’ve done nothing wrong in this situation, she has. I adored her. She has to live with what she’s done. She made her bed, now let her lie in it. As I said previously, I wish her all the best.”
Bianca admitted: “Of course [that’s tough to hear] but I do get it because obviously he’s really, really hurt and if it was the other way around I would be hurt, so that’s a fair comment. I just hoped that he was going to stop doing these set up pap shots.
"He’s asked to be left alone, but he’s the one that’s been triggering off the press by setting up these shots. I don’t understand why he keeps doing it.”
On the subsequent split with Jamie, she said: “We were supposed to meet up the day before the story came out and then he messaged me saying it was for personal reasons which I was like fair enough, I hope everything’s OK.
"I said fair enough, we’ll just meet up whenever. Then the next day obviously I read it online that obviously he’d dumped me. But we kind of wasn’t in a relationship anyway. We didn’t have the labels.”
Jamie’s agent sent a message to the Loose Women panel saying: “Jamie’s feelings inside the house were genuine. He wishes Bianca all the best.”
A tearful Bianca admitted: “It’s just been so negative since I’ve left the house.”
Meanwhile an insider told The Sun’s Bizarre column at the time of the split: “They are going to remain firm friends but Jamie needs to spend time with his family first and focus on other things in his life.
“They had a great time in the CBB house but unfortunately it has come to an end.”
However things have soured between the pair since then.
