Carol McGiffin is convinced she will die of cancer and is haunted by the fear of it coming back
CAROL McGiffin has revealed that she's convinced she's going to die of cancer.
The TV presenter opened up about being haunted by the fear of her breast cancer returning.
Speaking to Best magazine, Carol admitted that: "I'm 58 I will probably still die from cancer
"But I don't think it will be tomorrow so I'm getting on with stuff."
Following the death of radio presenter Rachael Bland, Carol became reflective about her personal experience of 'the big C' and her continual fears.
She said that Rachael's passing from triple-negative breast cancer - the same as hers: "set me back a bit and brought back the thoughts of it returning."
She added: "I don't think you are ever free from that fear"
The Loose Women star revealed that if her cancer did ever come back she wouldn't tell people because she doesn't want to be treated differently.
"I just want to feel normal but people can't be normal around it because of the fear."
Carol turned philosophical "The past has gone and no future is guaranteed.
"It's the best reason to appreciate and live your life to the full."
And that is exactly what the presenter is doing as she's set to resume a more regular slot on Loose Women.
Fans rejoiced when the original panellist returned to the show in July after five years.
The 58-year-old, who quit the ITV show in 2013, looked amazing as she showed off the results of a face lift, which she had had just three weeks prior.
Carol was welcomed on the show by cheers and confetti, but she admitted she was very nervous.
When she took her seat on the panel, she showed that her hands were shaking and joked: "It's like I haven't had a drink in a week".
She admitted that it was “odd” to be there but the time was right.
Asked what she had been up to, Carol confessed “a hell of a lot."
She said: “I did CBB and then I got sick, I got breast cancer, I lost my hair and I lost a boob, then I was really ill.
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“I sold my flat in London and moved to France. I had a facelift three weeks ago and then I came back to Loose women.”
Joking about her new look, she added: "If you're looking at me thinking I look a bit strange or a bit younger than I did last week then I probably do!"
Discussing her decision to return to the show, she said: “It’s a lot of things that it’s the right thing to do now. Like I said, I was feeling ill.
“I wasn’t actually feeling like there was a lot of point in doing a lot of stuff. When you have cancer, and a lot of people have, and you recover, you have to wait five years before they give you the all clear but even then, there’s no guarantees.
“In my head for about two years I kept thinking, ‘It’s going to come back tomorrow so what’s the point? I might as well not work so then I can just have a good time.’ I just couldn’t plan doing anything.
“I was convinced, it was at the front of my mind, that it was going to come back and that was going to be that. It hasn’t come back so I’ve had to go back to work, which is a really good thing actually. I’m really pleased to be here. I’m really nervous which is odd because I did over a 1000 shows.”
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